Monday, April 9, 2007


The brownies were pretty good.

I'm going to start keeping a detailed blood sugar log again, cos I've got a looming endo appointment in May. I've changed my basals a lot over the past few weeks, but I'm still getting random yurky highs. I wish I was having more trouble with lows. Hopefully my endo can point out a few patterns for me. Most of the time she's just very happy that I'm testing so often and that I treat any issues quickly, but I wish I never HAD the issues. Sometimes I feel like a "bad diabetic" because I see at least one or two out of range numbers every day. I know they happen whether I see them or not, and whether I've done all I can or not (temporary post-prandial spiking, anyone?) , but it's still frustrating to me. I judge the quality of my control subjectively, by whatever feeling I get when I think of it. Right now I'd grade myself a B-.

My diabetic dream would be to have an average of 115 on my pump, and a logbook full of 80's. But in reality, 80's freak me out. In reality, my pump average is 145. Yikes.

My meter says "83." And the subtext to that little number would be "...and dropping!" I've never been able to be a steady-freddie 80. I can blissfully hang out at 125 or 130 for hours. But 80? Nah.

Back to work...


Kevin said...

It's tough not to be hard on ourselves at times. Friends and family often tell me that I'm too hard on myself. But often these comments come from people who don't value their own health very much. They don't have the same concerns and face the same risks.

But at the same time, it sounds like you're pretty well on top of your control and shouldn't be too hard on yourself.

It's all about finding the right balance.

Kendra said...

Ah yes, the "all in moderation" phrase. I can preach it but it is hard to practice. Thanks for bringing me back down to earth, Kevin. :)

Kerri. said...

I totally hear you on not being able to hang steady at 80 mg/dl. I can co-exist nicely with a 111 mg/dl, but anything under 90 just leads to quickly to 80 ... then to 70 ... then to, hang on, I need some juice. I'm a 100 type of lady.

Welcome to the blogosphere. I'm off to add you to my blogroll. And I really enjoy the posts you have here. I'm looking forward to reading more.


Kendra said...

Thank you, Kerri - huge compliment coming from you. I devoured your blog over the course of three days! :D It was a pure joy to read.

Sandra Miller said...

"My meter says "83." And the subtext to that little number would be "...and dropping!"

Kendra, I read this line and nodded.

When my son is in the 80s, he always has to eat something or else he WILL go low.

Ah, well.

A belated welcome to the blogosphere-- and hey, thanks so much for stopping by my site.

I'll add a link to your blog this evening.


Kendra said...

I don't know many Type 2's - but maybe they can stay at 80 and have no fear! :) Either that or someone with KILLER perfect basal rates! :D